When Jill when missing I was worried. I know that in the past when people have gotten too close to me, they have disappeared. My mother does not like competition. She needs to be the only woman in my life. My mother is very much like a little girl, a little girl that I need to take care of. I know that my girlfriend thinks that mother uses my emotions to manipulate me, but she’ll never understand. My mother needs me, and even though I will complain, there is a part of me that enjoys being needed. My mother is like oxygen that keeps the fire inside of me burning, and Jill, well, Jill’s a moth, and if she gets too close to us, she will burn.
Date: December 2, 2017